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Five things Jack loved and lost

A random five things. The quick and dirty result of my moping for the poor wee broken 'puter of which I am quite fond,  really. Despite the incredibly loud fan and the awful audio and the battery that lasts for almost two whole minutes.

Title : Five things Jack loved and lost
Rating : G, I'll say
Word count : 620

Jack fell in love with flying  at an airshow when he was thirteen, and kept loving it all the  way through high school, the Academy, the first mission he flew, the first botched mission he flew, all the near-misses and almost-disasters.

He was a pretty good pilot.  Not the best, but good enough, and he loved to fly. Then he ran into anti-aircraft just over the border of Iraq, his chute didn't open and the ground broke his fall.  And three ribs.  And his left arm.  And his skull.  It took him nine days to get to people who could help.  It felt like years, but dehydration and pain and concussion can do that.  He should have been dead, and neither he nor the medics could quite work out why he wasn't.  He was back on active duty within the year, but he'd been re-assed to the Twenty-third.  Apparently being too stubborn to stop moving was a good quality to have in that line of work and, Jack discovered, he had lots of other qualities too. The Air Force had more use for a very, very good spec ops guy than for an okay pilot, and it was the end of his flying career.

He lost Charlie through his own stupidity.  Lost Sara the same way.

These days, he tries not to think about that.

Daniel, when he ascended.  It wasn't the first time and, as it turns out, it's not the last either. But Jack thinks it might have been the worst.

When he loses Daniel again after that, Jack tries to think of him as being merely misplaced.  He'll turn up eventually.  Probably when Jack is looking for something else.

He lost SG-1 because he was old and tired and afraid that the next pre-mission fitness test would be the one he wouldn't pass. He thought later that he'd been caught at a weak moment, still disoriented and freaked out by having his brain taken over by an ancient civilization, saving the world (again), being frozen for several months, then returned to his normal IQ and thawed out in time to fight the creepy Replicator bugs. Taking advantage of that momentary lapse and offering him a promotion he never thought he'd get was just sneaky.

He's not old.

The Stargate he gives up, for, oh, so many reasons. Because being offered  another unlikely promotion so soon after the first is flattering. Because he really can do more for  the program from Washington. Because George Hammond tells him it's a good idea. Because if he has to fly a desk, it might as well be a shiny one in a big office with a window and a nice view.

Because maybe if he doesn't have to see it every day he won't miss it so much.

Jack loses Minnesota when a Goa'uld fleet descends through the atmosphere and begins to systematically destroy anywhere that is capable of offering significant resistance. He loses the whole Earth at the same time, but that is a failure too huge to think about, a loss too disastrous to contemplate or comprehend.

He and Teal'c leave, reluctantly,  when it is clear there is no hope; leave mostly because Carter, having waited well past the last minute,  rings them up bloody and protesting into an al'kesh that already holds Daniel, Mitchell, Dixon, the few other defenders of the SGC who remain, and then stands the ship on its end and flees for the stars.

Jack leans his forehead against the viewport and watches the planet shrink behind them. Teal'c comes to stand beside him, still angry and vengeful where Jack is only tired, now.

"We will return, O'Neill.  We will fight for the freedom of your people as once we fought for mine."

Jack closes his eyes, and thinks of home.

ETA:  The original 23 AF was what came before AFSOC, established 1983 and redesignated AFSOC 1990.


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Jul. 20th, 2009 03:33 am (UTC)
Because maybe if he doesn't have to see it every day he won't miss it so much.


But all are very clever.

(totally ot, I love your icon).
Jul. 20th, 2009 09:15 am (UTC)
Thank you. I love making people "awww".

I also love Beaker:)
Jul. 20th, 2009 04:09 am (UTC)
Wow, very, very good, each and every one. I wasn't expecting that last one at all--quite a kick in the gut.

PS. Thanks for saving Dave Dixon too. ;)
Jul. 20th, 2009 09:18 am (UTC)
Glad you like them.

Adam Baldwin is awesome, and had to survive in order to be Jayne later. (Why, yes, I am insane.) Walter and Siler are already safely offworld :)
Jul. 20th, 2009 03:36 pm (UTC)
Major Davis? Beamed up with Jack? ;)
You know you have to write a nice long story about the fight for the Earth now, right? :)
Jul. 20th, 2009 04:23 pm (UTC)
The fight to defend or to reclaim? Or both? Could be an interesting challenge, I've never written anything with a plot before.

Davis is....with Hammond in the second last ship to leave, hugely relieved to have SG-1 safe after spending the last half hour thinking that they are all going to die. Or something.
Jul. 20th, 2009 05:15 pm (UTC)
*claps hands with glee at the idea of chocolatekettle writing plotty fic!*
Hmmm... It depends on if you want to write it AU or within canon, I guess. If you want to go the canon route, you'd have to find a way not to reveal the existance of the program, which would pretty much mean that it couldn't go this far.

On the other hand, you've got a very interesting scenario here. Dave Dixon will be worried about his kids, Jack will be back in a position of leading in the field, the Tauri will be in a similar situation as the Jaffa once were...

Which of their former allies will be willing and able to help them? Which won't? What resources will they have available? Is this a resurgence of the Gou'uld after the defeat of the Ori, or something else? Who are these Goa'uld?

So many interesting possibilities...

Edited at 2009-07-20 05:15 pm (UTC)
Jul. 20th, 2009 10:29 pm (UTC)
Oh lord. See, this is why I don't do plot. Things get complicated. I don't suppose I could say it's a different Mitchell and go AU at Lost City? Or would that be cheating?

You interest me strangely. Expect plotty fic sometime next year :P
Jul. 20th, 2009 10:52 pm (UTC)
Erm... Well,there's no such thing as cheating in AU, really. It's a big ballpark. I guess it depends on how much canon character/plot development you want to give up/recreate... And how far away you want your team to be from the canon team in terms of experiences. You ditch seasons eight through ten, and you ditch a lot of stuff...

You interest me strangely. Expect plotty fic sometime next year :P

It's a lot more difficult, but very satisfying... Well, I think it will be, once I get this story finished... I am wondering if every story is going to take 3-4 months to write now, though... ;)

Edited at 2009-07-20 10:53 pm (UTC)
Jul. 20th, 2009 04:59 pm (UTC)
When he loses Daniel again after that, Jack tries to think of him as being merely misplaced. He'll turn up eventually. Probably when Jack is looking for something else.


Because maybe if he doesn't have to see it every day he won't miss it so much.

Awesome stuff! Another one of your fics going on my rec list.

Also, I am friending you. Mostly because I have no idea why I haven't until now. :)
Jul. 20th, 2009 10:34 pm (UTC)
Shiny! I like new friends, though I'm terribly shy about friending people first :)

And thank you very much! glad you enjoyed.
Jul. 20th, 2009 06:53 pm (UTC)
I love the first four. The last one just hurts.
Jul. 20th, 2009 10:35 pm (UTC)
I hope in a good way. thank you for letting me know.
Jul. 20th, 2009 08:49 pm (UTC)
Oh wow. There's too much good stuff here to pick favourites! Every single one hurts but in different ways. And your Jack characterisation is perfect! :)
Jul. 20th, 2009 10:36 pm (UTC)
thank you!
Jul. 21st, 2009 07:08 am (UTC)
Very good. And I agree about saving Adam Baldwin to become Jayne. In fact, I can see amazing crossover AUs unfolding before me here...wheee!
Jul. 21st, 2009 09:53 am (UTC)
Heehee, already thought of that. Just think of all the arguing and hilarity that would ensue should SG1 meet the crew of Serenity...
Glad you liked!
Jul. 24th, 2009 09:29 pm (UTC)
Very nice.
My favourite line was: "When he loses Daniel again after that, Jack tries to think of him as being merely misplaced. He'll turn up eventually. Probably when Jack is looking for something else."
Jul. 28th, 2009 11:05 pm (UTC)
Glad you liked it :)
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:48 am (UTC)
This was lovely! I loved the third one :) Thank you!
Sep. 27th, 2010 05:09 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it, thanks for letting me know your favourite!
Sep. 22nd, 2010 01:20 pm (UTC)
Here via stargateficrec. This is just lovely. I especially love #4 and this line: Because maybe if he doesn't have to see it every day he won't miss it so much.; there's just so much truth in it and it really packs an emotional punch.

Well done!
Sep. 27th, 2010 05:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I haven't actually seen season 8 yet so I don't know what reason was given for Jack leaving, but this seemed plausible :)
Sep. 22nd, 2010 04:46 pm (UTC)
Oh, very nice!
Sep. 27th, 2010 05:11 pm (UTC)
thank you, glad you liked!
Sep. 23rd, 2010 12:55 am (UTC)
Aww, all very cleverly written and painful in its various degrees, liked it very much.
Sep. 27th, 2010 05:11 pm (UTC)
It's odd that 'painful' is a compliment, isn't it? But it is, I hope, so thank you :)
Sep. 23rd, 2010 02:33 am (UTC)
This is really awesome...especially the last, painful, desperate part. I like his observation about Daniel being "misplaced" and about Carter ringing them up as the only reason they ultimately leave when Earth is lost. The phrasing of "a failure too huge to think about, a loss too disastrous to contemplate or comprehend" is the most powerful thing in the piece. Excellent.
Sep. 27th, 2010 05:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much :)
Sep. 29th, 2010 01:31 pm (UTC)
Aw, I love the piece about Daniel. He does lose him a lot, doesn't he?

And the last... Okay, that just begs for a fic, a long fic, about the battle for Earth/freedom.
Feb. 12th, 2011 05:42 pm (UTC)
Just wanted to let you know I've recced you over at stargateficrec in the angst category. You've written a poetic and lyrical look at what losses Jack has experienced or could and really touched this readers heart. I had tears in my eyes after reading and a pillow clutched to me as well. Thanks for sharing this. :)
Feb. 13th, 2011 06:43 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the lovely rec and for letting me know :) I'm so glad this worked for you.
Feb. 12th, 2013 12:15 pm (UTC)
I did say, quite a while ago, that this was on my to-rec list... :)
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